Well.. my weekend was certainly interesting. The good parts were i got to spend time with Alexis Edgerson! She has literally been my best friend since we were born. No joke (; I had a nice and relaxing time at her house and went to her youth group thingie with her this morning. It was fun! (: The other good part is that i had my first showchoir rehearsal today, which kicked off my showchoir season! YAYY!! I am so thrilled.. I'm pretty sure our first competition is in five weeks at Ben Davis... -__- We are gonna kick ass!
On a more serious note, I am extremely emotionally drained after this weekend. I had two of my best friends really hurt me. And it sucks... They are the two people that I expected to be right there next to me and supporting me through this rough time of my life. Instead, they are making it a lot worse. I never would have seen it coming either. I try.. really hard to make people happy. But it never seems like what I do is enough. I know I've done wrong to them in the past, but the blame is equally there. I wish that they could just put the past back where it belongs and actually step up and try and be supportive. I'm not trying to make it "all about me" .. but i really need their help to make me feel better. I feel Abandoned. Literally, i feel like there is no one there for me anymore. I go to bed crying every night now because of how betrayed I am... and the pain just keeps piling on. Thanks a lot guys.. I really appreciate it. Your actions are duly noted )))):
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